2016 Fitness Goals: Kenza

Part of our purpose in writing here is to hold one another accountable for getting back in shape. Both of us are former college athletes who really like food and who really hate running. But let's see if we can't get back to a place where we feel strong, beautiful, and powerful by working out, eating well, and keeping our minds and souls healthy and happy...

So, I was an athlete my freshman year of college.

By that time I was really good at sleeping, I had perfected the way my bun looked in my swim cap and I was drinking a lot of chocolate milk. But before this, in high school I loved the way my body looked. I was toned, lean, tanned and I could out-swim most of the general population -which really boosts your ego- so I was really feeling myself

The thing about college athletics is that a lot of it is generalized for a cookie cutter population of athletes who can eat whatever they want, drink tons of protein and still look like their metabolisms are working overtime. HOWEVER, I quickly learned that a cookie cutter approach to food and athletics did not work for me. Plus I had introduced an unusual amount of alcohol in my diet (as most freshman in college do). This hardy combination of weight lifting, over eating, over protein-ing, and over alcohol-ing did not do wonders for my metabolism or my figure. I didn't look overweight, but I felt awful. I immediately swung to the other side of the pendulum and tried to lose weight fast. I figured I was working out a lot already, now I just have to eat less. If only I could go back and tell myself how wrong this was. 

I continued to drink alcohol, eat less, train more and I essentially disintegrated as an athlete. Unfortunately, one aspect that people don't really mention in losing weight is the emotional aspect. It's a very scientific approach because the scientific approach to weight loss is both accurate and effective, but in the same way economics is defined as a social science I really believe we should take into account the very real emotions that occur in the fitness journey. It's a lot of disappointment, anger, resentment, joy, pleasure and relief. 

When I started working out again, I knew what I was doing. I know how to swim well, how to lift, I know all of the rules of engagement, how to not hurt yourself lifting weights and how to eat. But I don't know how to handle all the emotions that go along with it. 

My physical goals are clear:

  • Do cardio everyday

  • Do yoga everyday

  • Lift weights twice a week

  • Do pilates twice a week

My emotional goals are less clear. I want to stay positive, not be so hard on myself, learn to enjoy the process and not just seek a quick result. Essentially I want to be able to expect fluctuations in my emotions and not be scared by them, I recognize that this will be a process but I finally feel like I'm ready and excited to see what happens when I embrace every aspect of the journey. 

Here's to a productive and progressive 2016!!